Girls, I love you, but seriously, mom needs 10 minutes to herself!!!!

Parents just love Christmas break from school. Kids are home for two weeks solid. My apartment looks like a tornado has hit it and I cannot even go to the bathroom alone. My grocery bill has doubled this week and the non-stop whining is killing me.

I have not had one cup of hot coffee this week. Luke-warm or cold are my only options. I have not had a moments quiet since school let out on the 23rd. The result is my head is spinning, I am hardly sleeping, I have zero energy and I just want to cry.

Last night I started shaking so hard I could not stand up. I thought I was going to drop to the floor like a ton of bricks. The girls were screaming, they were arguing, they were throwing toys. Nothing I said would make them stop. Nothing their father said would make them stop. I could not breathe. My vision blurred. I curled up in a ball on the couch and did not move for the next hour.

Everything fell apart. No one would take care of dinner leftovers. No one would wash dishes or take out the garbage. No one would follow their bedtime routine. He sat on his phone playing games and ignored the mayhem. I closed in on myself and wished I was anywhere but home.

It is not too much to ask for a few minutes alone each day. It is not to much to ask for a little personal space each day. Around here, it is a sin to ask for these things. It is too inconvenient to ask this of my family. I stay home all day with the girls. I do not deal with the stress of working, therefore I do not need quiet time or alone time. Obviously, I am missing something here. Can I run away from home?